Your Love

You talked to Your Love this morning. I feel sorry for you that you feel you have to go through this. I know that you want her to love you. You want her to leave her husband and be with you. You knew going into the relationship with her that she was married, maybe it didn't start out that way. You were just friends with her first, but that is not how it turned out. I heard you cry on the phone when you told her how much you loved her and missed her and how much you wanted to be with her. I heard you ask her if she was in love with you or not, and I also heard her not respond to you. You are giving her an ultimatum, either love me or leave me alone. You don't want her to stay with her husband, you want her to be with you. You tell me over and over that that is not what it is all about, that you just want her to be happy and sober, but then you don't include that in the options for her. You don't want to be alone, but you feel you are going to die waiting for her. You have told me that you want to run off with that one chick, but I don't think that is a good idea for you. You may never get over her, you will always love her, but you have to have space to love someone else and right now, every ounce of your being is for her and only her. You need to wait until you can honestly say you have space to love someone else. It wouldn't be fair to the other person if you didn't. You will never love someone as much as her, and there are women out there who will settle for less than everything you have to offer. As long as you are honest about it, and not throwing yourself into another relationship. Just take your time about it, but I truly feel that you feel your time is running out. I know you think it will not take that much time, but it will take longer than you think. You think right now, running off with someone else will help you move on from her, and it won't. It will just set you up to get hurt more and cut the other person short. You said it yourself, you still have time to make something of yourself and your life. Don't jump in too deep, or else you won't be able to get yourself out of it. You may jump so deep, that there will be no one to help pull you out.