One step at a time

I dreampt about you last night. I dreampt about our past, what we used to have. In my dream, you gave me something to hold onto and I lost it. I started walking away from you. I walked so far that eventually, I didn't even see you anymore. I think that this is what is going to happen. I am going to turn away from you and eventually you will disappear. Those feelings have already faded so much, I am not sure if any of them are there anymore. There is no real way of knowing. I can't dig and pretend that there is something there that isn't. I have decided to step forward and move on from you. I am not going to look back. I am not going to want to come back to you. I have no regrets, but the future does not include you unless it pertains to the kids. They are my life now, they always have been and always will be. We decided not work on our marriage. We. You decided that it is all me, and that none of it is your fault. You feel that love is enough, but you know what, it isn't enough. Your love is not enough to hold me to you, to make me want to stay with you. My love isn't there anymore. There isn't anything that I want to do more than be on my own and support myself. I want this more than I could ever. And I am getting closer and closer to achieving that goal.