Just Today

Well, we haven't talked at all today except for like 10 minutes, all of which was about Your Love. Sometimes I wonder if you care as much as I want you to. I was thinking about that today. I want you to care a lot about me, but you don't. You seem to have lost interest. I miss you calling me all the time. I miss you saying that you miss me. I miss hearing you talk dirty to me on the phone, telling me all the things that you are going to do to me. It's like once we crossed that line, you got bored with me. Against my better judgment, I texted you today. You called be back later. You told me you had a good conversation with Your Love, that you both have realized that you can't go there right now, so you just need to be there and be supportive of each other like you always have been. You sounded better today than you have in a little while. You told me that you were going to get married next week, which I know is a bunch of B.S. but it still made me wonder. I told you that you better not get married. You said "You want me to be happy, don't you?" Of course I want you to be happy. I told you "you have to wait for me" to which you just laughed. You had to get off the phone. I think when I move to my new place, it will be easier for me to separate and leave you alone. I am doing my best to let things go as they should, but it is really hard for me. I wish I had never crossed that line with you, as much fun as it was. All it did was make things complicated. I need to get over you. I just haven't figured out how.