From June 8th

I told my husband I wanted a separation. I have not been in the same house with him in 2 days. I have no desire for him. When I slept in the parking lot the first night, you talked to me for 3 hours. You were so sweet and understanding. I know you have been though this, so that I why I trust you. We talked about all the dirty things we were going to do once finals were over. We attempted to have phone sex, but didn't get that far. I couldn't take it. I tried to get you to come see me and you wouldn't even though you wanted to. We need to cool it down a little. We need to slow it down a little. We need to wait until I get an apartment, when I am settled. We need to make sure that this is going to work. You called me yesterday a few times to see how I was doing, how my job hunt was going. It was nice to know that someone cared about how this is going. You told me you knew I was strong, that I knew what I was doing and that I could do this. You told me you were proud of me and admired me. Then we talked again last night for a few before you had to sleep. It all seems to be the same thing, though. All we talk about is sex, and our attaction to each other, nothing too specific. I want to know what your favorite type of music is, what you read for pleasure, all those thing. But I don't want to know because then it will become to real what I am feeling. You called me a 5am this morning before you had to leave on your flight. I didn't expect to hear from you again until you landed in Cali at 3:30 but you called me on your layover. Then you said "Don't fall in love with me, ok", I told you I wouldn't, that I have too much going on, that I can't think about anything like that right now. I told you "don't fall in love with me either" and you said you would try not to. Things happen for a reason, so why are these things happening. I am afraid that if we see each other out of class that I will jump your bones and suck your **** in a parking lot. I cant wait until you get back in town. I want to see you so bad. I want to feel your hands on me, your lips on my neck. I want to look into your dark brown eyes and see that fire that I feel in my heart. You promised me that you would make love to me. I really don't want you to break that promise. I am just very impatient and I can't wait until you make that dream a reality. I can't wait to feel your fingers inside or your **** either. I cant wait until you scratch your nails down my back, bite the back of my leg, ramming it hard. This is all so naughty that I can't handle the hotness of just thinking about it. I can't wait to talk to you agian. I hope you land in Cali safe and sound and call me as soon as you land.